pages from a lost boy's imagination

first off, i don’t know what exactly i have to say about the black/dark gray but it does feel a bit more sleek to me (or maybe apple has brainwashed me to think things like that, which is fine by me haha) but anyways

i used to come here solely to follow you, then i started to see the potential for other inspiration, now it’s come full circle.

i’m gonna try to pick it back up again, and in doing so finish the book.

so this is now as much mine as it is yours, and i want you to continue too. You inspire me.

but i am no longer following you. if you choose to discontinue i’ll make my own decision. never regret something that once made you happy… tumblr made me happy haha

i love you too

so i checked my “love” horoscope for the week of May 10

“Romantic idealist or jaded cynic from the school of hard knocks? The Cosmos is trying to blend these disparate sides, and shape you into a responsible romantic. It’s not as dry as it sounds; after all, your ability to trust in love is anchored when you express your maturity. That still leaves plenty of room for kooky spontaneity – which will, in just a few short days, be the hallmark of your most important relationship. It’s going to be an exciting ride, but you’ll be grateful for the feeling of groundededness that the Universe is trying to instill in you now.”

i couldn’t even make that up if i tried

or just have time off so i can enjoy little things again

or i wish i could drop out of school, study at night or something to graduate and find out what i want to do with my life for a lot cheaper and without so much inner turmoil.

i guess i’m just sick of taking classes which i like but have no real interest in, having the teachers tell me how wrong i am or that i dont get it, and feel like a waste of time.

in other things though i find myself completely enthralled in what’s going on and love it. sadly those are the things i do on my own.

i wish the education concept in accepted was real, that’s where i could do well.

anyways, i’m trying to focus my dislike of school into a drive to do well and be one of those successful people who didn’t do well in school but very well in life.

I want to do very well in life.

Upon calling it quits on an all nighter and heading to bed for a nap I found out

I’M AN UNCLE, AGAIN!

and now I’m a little too excited to sleep!

Welcome Anna Marie! Molly you will be an amazing big sister, I know Meghan is already insanely jealous of you!

Possibly good night but probably not.

but i already failed

i failed it yesterday when i knew it was here, last week when i saw it coming, and four months ago when i hoped not to see it like this. and even though i want to act like it’s any other day i can’t and won’t.

never regret something that once made you smiles

i hope this isn’t the wrong thing to say, because this is the one day i need to. unlike those other days when i ignored it and it came and found me anyway.

and like that picture ↓, sometimes choosing not to ignore it works out in the best way (for me at least)